Flow

The water’s flowing and I can’t decide

If I should dip a toe or jump inside

Then the moment comes when my dream knocks upon my door

 

It’s like a moment we have all come to

The moment when you know you have to choose

Open your heart close your eyes

 

I’m in the flow and I don’t even have to row

Trusting just because I know

I’m on a path

A path that has no turning back

Finally on the right track

So sit back enjoy the show

I’m in the flow

 

My turn is coming I am next in line

My heart is pumping dreams are on my mind

Then the moment comes I’m in front they ask

What is it you need?

 

We can be supported but we have to do the work

The best work comes from the deepest hurt

Close those old doors open your mind

 

Heaven and Hell

I know why the wind blows through the trees

It’s a combination of all our good energy

Floating around

Because I’ve been to heaven and back

Yes I have

 

It’s a blessing and burden

There’s some healing and hurting

Inside this beautiful mind of mine

Inside this beautiful mind

 

I know why babies cry

I know why people die

Because I’ve been to hell and back

I’ve been to hell and back

Yes I have

 

It’s a blessing and burden

There’s some healing and hurting

Inside this terrifying mind of mine

Inside this terrifying

 

This terrifying beautiful mind

Amen.

 

Tides

Finally a moment has come

A moment when I am left alone

And with that sweet moment I squander I wander I roam

 

Hopefully soon I’ll decide

To focus my passion

To work from the inside

I’ve so much potential eventually I’ll arrive

Then depart once again

 

Take that step

Make that dream a reality

Stop being concerned with the lessons you haven’t learned

All in time

All unfolds

Be as gentle with yourself as you are with the ones you love

Let it crash and subside

Accept the tides

 

Finally a moment has come

A moment when I am still in my mind

And with that sweet moment I shut all the engines down

 

Hopefully soon I’ll decide

To see past my nose

To notice the outside

The rain is torrential eventually I’ll be dry

Then caught in a gale again

 

Evening Blues

Late in the evening when nobody’s home

And I’m feeling so alone

Late in the evening I sing this song

In hopes that you will sing along

 

Oh those blues got me down…

 

Late in the evening when the sun goes down

And no one makes a sound

Late in the evening when the land grows dark

And the only thing left for me

Is the stars

 

Oh those blues got me down…

 

Dead Wooden box: Ode to a guitar

I picked you up one day and noticed a dent

One I inflicted on accident

You threw your reflection at me

And said, “I wear your scars proudly”

 

You take it from me when I take it out on you

You yell when I’m angry and you cry when I’m blue

So here’s a sweet song just for you

 

So many memories I can retrace

Like the smell of your spruce top when I open your case

I frantically open the locks

Who knew so much could grow from a dead wooden box

 

You take it from me when I take it out on you

You yell when I’m angry and you cry when I’m blue

So here’s a sweet song just for you

 

When the ambulance came and took me away

With an expressionless face I said, “I don’t want to stay”

So they brought you to my bedside

And I cried

And I cried

 

You take it from me when I take it out on you

You yell when I’m angry and you cry when I’m blue

So here’s a sweet song just for you

 

There is hope

There were times when nothingness swallowed me whole,

There were times when my plate was too full

And I dropped it

Everything shattered and scattered everywhere

 

There were times when I was riding high

There were times like an arrow I’d fly

Until I dropped

Like a shooting star right out of the sky

 

But I remembered…

 

There is hope in the emptiest hole,

There is hope when there’s nowhere to go

There is hope

 

There is hope when you’ve lost everything,

There is hope when the demons cling

There is hope

 

There are times when I’m paralyzed by fear

There are times when I feel a break is near

Yet I stand

Like a skyscraper stands tall beneath the sky

 

There are times when my mind races like a hungry pack of wolves     

There are times it sees red and charges like a bull

Yet I’m still

Trying to breathe as I’m right inside the eye of the storm

 

But somehow I remember

 

There is hope in the emptiest hole,

There is hope when there’s nowhere to go

There is hope

 

There is hope when you’ve lost everything,

There is hope when the demons cling

There is hope

 

Within

She’s the one I’ve always had

Each and every heartbeat of the way

She has seen me rise and fall

She has felt me wax and wane

 

She’s the one that makes it count

Each moment sacred sealed in pen

She has been through quite a lot

And she’ll get through it again

I’ll get through it again

 

What we all go out searching for

In a lover in a friend

We can find in our own backyards

It’s within

 

But before I go share the love

I’ve got to fill it to the brim

I am a source unto myself

I’ve got to go within go within

 

I’ll be the one I know I am

Each moment black white in between

Because I have seen the power of love

I have watched it intervene

 

I’m the one that makes it count

Each moment neither start nor end

Because it’s just all one big lump of time

I’ll get through time and time again

You’ll get through time and time again

 

What we all go out searching for

In a lover in a friend

We can find in our own backyards

It’s within

 

But before I go share the love

I’ve got to fill it to the brim

I am a source unto myself

I’ve got to go within go within

It’s within it’s within it’s within…

 

Shaky knees

I think it’s safe to say I got it made

I’ve got a good job good friends good family

I think it’s safe to say you fit me well

And from where I’m standing I can tell

 

That you’re a whole lot of woman

And you need a whole lot of loving

She’s a hot July’s forgiving breeze

And she gives me shaky knees

 

I think it’s safe to say I met a match

She’s got a big heart big butt and she’s got class

I think it’s safe to say I gave my heart

To my main squeeze

She’s a lovely work of art

 

Got a whole lot of woman

And she needs a whole lot of loving

She’s a hot July’s forgiving breeze

And she gives me shaky knees

 

Babe I love you like the moon loves the tide

Babe I love you like Evil Knievel loves the ride

Babe I love you like James Brown loves the funk

Babe I want you like the morning wants the sun

 

She’s a whole lot of woman

And she needs a whole lot of loving

She’s a hot July’s forgiving breeze

And she gives me shaky knees

Shaky knees

 

Pennies

Broken

By words that kept me down

I had misspoken

But my callused words still stand their ground.

Patient

Study the lesson in this mess

Because adjacent to my compassion is my self-respect

 

Don’t forget that words are not like pennies

Like you can throw them all around forgotten on the ground

Not like pennies you can’t take them or leave them believe me

Your words added up

So I’m cashing out

 

Fix it

Like duct tape on a crack

Or nix it

Because spoken words do not retract

Fizzle

Don’t stoke this fire up

Because I’m tired

And I’m old enough to know when I’ve had enough

 

I keep friends who place value on feelings

They can stand inside my shoes

Before they blow the fuse

And lately I don’t like the woman I’ve turned into

Something had to change and now with all this change

I’m cashing in

 

Train

Here comes a train..

The trains leaving the station but I don’t know where it’s going

The trains leaving the station but I don’t know where it’s going

All I know baby is that I’ve got to go this one alone now

 

Choo choo full steam ahead now and I’m settle in my tracks

Choo choo full steam ahead and I know I may get derailed

But I can’t think about that

 

All I can think about anymore is just how badly I want my baby back

 

Bell Jar

I saw the sadness in your eyes

And it made me want to comfort you

As if I was your demise

I’ve got to move on move through

 

If only it were simple

But I’ve got complex feelings that get to me sometimes

Taking on the burdens that person shouldn’t take

Opened up my heart too far

I’ve got to lift the bell jar

 

I heard the wreckage in your voice

And it made me want to cry for you

As if I didn’t have a choice

But it’s me that I’ve got to choose

 

If only it were simple

But I’ve got complex feelings that get to me sometimes

Taking on the burdens that person shouldn’t take

Opened up my heart too far

I’ve got to lift the bell jar

 

I smell the roses every day

I count my gratitudes every night

Shame guilt blame negativity

I don’t want to hold on to what’s not mine

 

And even though it isn’t simple

It’s the only way to let go and live

Until you hit the center of the richness in yourself

Releases from the self-made hell

I’m lifting the bell jar

 

Boomerang

There’s a woman at work named Autumn

I’ve known her for many years

And the first day I met her

She had a grimace ear to ear

 

You see Autumn works long hours

And she has a lot of layers

And at first glance you might think

That Autumn doesn’t care

 

I could have let it eat me up

Run a rumor mill at work

But rumors grow like tumors

So I rose above and sang

 

Boomerang Boomerang

My truest self sang boomerang

Boomerang Boomerang

Heart for heart or fang for fang

Boomerang

 

If you only give to get then this lesson you’ll forget

Boomerang

 

Each day I’d flash a smile

Each day a bright hello

I’d ask about her day

Then off to work I’d go

 

It didn’t take much effort

I slowly chipped away

Her walls came crashing down before me

Which in turn improved my day

 

I could have let it eat me up

Run a rumor mill at work

But rumors grow like tumors

So I rose above and sang

 

Boomerang Boomerang

My truest self sang boomerang

Boomerang Boomerang

Heart for heart or fang for fang

Boomerang

 

The Source

Sometimes a break is what it takes.

Though the pieces of you scatter

Different sorts of pieces gather

 

Sometimes a scar reveals the trial

Your heart will slowly mend

Left with resilience in the end

 

Because I know I’ll grow when the rain falls down

Though it pounds against my face

I will stand in present place

 

May I remember one thing on the days

When I feel completely lost

I’m one step closer to The Source

 

Sometimes a leap is what it takes

Though the landing isn’t clear

You will learn to persevere

 

Sometimes magic comes true

And when it does you can rejoice

Because it means you’ve found your voice

 

May I remember one thing on the days

That my souls completely fed

That I’m safe.

 

Cuz I know I’ll grow when the sun comes up

With my arms outstretched

I will capture this moment until it’s impressed

I’ll have said yes to my needs

I will give as I receive

Knowing I’m one step closer to The Source