In the past, I had been operating out of the assumption that there wasn't enough. When I got to a gig one of my first thoughts was, "I hope enough people show up." When I submitted to book a festival one of my first thoughts was, "So many people are applying. There won't be enough spots for me." When I looked at my bank account one of my first thoughts was, "I hope I'll have enough to pay my bills, save, and feed my music career." When I did the math on my last manic episode I thought, "I hope I have enough time to do the things I need to before I go back to the hospital"
It hit me hard when I realized the root didn't live in "There is not enough" but worse, "I am not enough."
I won't bring enough people to gigs. I can't get enough of the good gigs. I won't make enough money. I won't have enough time to live a stable life. I just won't be enough.
But enough of that.
There is enough for me and there is enough for you. I am enough, and so are you.